Pregnancy #3, Update #4: Game-Changer

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It’s been about 4 weeks since I published my last pregnancy update. And the silence was intentional.

It’s not that I didn’t want to blog about it. I did. But, I was finding that my real-life and my blog were bleeding together, and there was some material I wanted to share with my blog-people but not necessarily with my real-life people – mostly, my work environment. So, I had to go dark for a while.

All this, the down-side of being a non-anonymous blogger.

However, it was about a month ago that we got some news that has changed everything.

I wrote about my 8 week appointment here. All the details there were true. But I sort left out the middle part of the story.

Here it is:

So, J. and I were in for our appointment, me – a nervous wreck as always. The sono tech (the girl I usually have – she hadn’t been there the week before) gets things going and a few seconds in, she suddenly stops. She turns to me, puts her hands on my knees, and says, ‘I don’t know how to tell you this.’

My heart and breathing stopped simultaneously. Please, God. Not this again.

“I don’t know how to tell you this,” she began again, “but you’ve got two babies in there. Twins.”

My eyes got as big as marbles. What? Twins? How in the world….? Only one embryo took.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, I’m sure. Here’s one….and here’s the other. They are in the same gestational sac, so they are identical – two boys or two girls. I don’t know how I missed this last week!”

“Wait! You didn’t miss this. Last week we had the other girl, not you!”

“Well. That explains it. But you are definitely having twins. And both of them look great.”

J. and I just started to laugh – and we couldn’t stop. Complete disbelief. Totally unexpected. What in the world. Twins? It was too much. One was miraculous enough – but two? We were shell-shocked. Stunned. We were having twins. Identical twins.

And those details I gave in my last update? Totally true. But that was just for Baby A. Baby B was right on par with heartbeats and measurements, too.

So how did they miss it? Well, our first sono showed just one gestational sac. Only one embryo took. So, at the next sono, they were only looking for one fetus, one heartbeat. Once the sono tech found it, she didn’t look around for anything else. And missed Baby B.

That was five weeks ago. Tomorrow I will be 13 weeks, and every appointment has been great. Heartbeats beautiful, size beautiful. Both doing great. What a totally different experience to go to doctor’s appointments and sonograms and actually smile and laugh and enjoy them. I have been savoring every single positive experience and realizing how lucky I am to get this chance.

Around the time of my last post, I had some random people at school either say something to me or say something to someone who then told me – about me being pregnant. I just didn’t want the news about the twins to get out ahead of me, so I had to keep silent on here. Today, I told my co-workers, I told my students, and Facebook will be updated tonight -so now it is pretty much public knowledge. A scary step of faith to bring this out in the open. But honestly? I am starting to show, and I really couldn’t hide it any longer. People were definitely talking.

It’s been a roller-coaster month. Definitely felt nauseated a lot – usually the afternoons and at night. Definitely tired. Definitely stressful having to hide it – to have all this going on, having my belly starting to grow, not having any clothes that fit – and having to keep this secret all the while. But I promise I’m not complaining. I will take this any day of the week compared to the past 3 years.

I have definitely had my meltdown moments. Around week 10, the night before my sono (the meltdowns usually begin 24-hours in advance), I was convinced I was going to get bad news. The flashbacks of this time last year, crying my eyes in chapel out during our school’s Spiritual Emphasis Week because I was miscarrying. Again. The flashbacks of the last time I was in my OB’s office on the sono table, being told there was no heartbeat. I was just convinced this one was going to end badly, too.

But it hasn’t. And my heart lets out the hugest sigh of relief every time I hear the precious swishing of the heartbeat. HeartbeatS – both of them.

I’ve had to meet with the high-risk doctor a few times so they could scare me to death about everything that could go wrong – and I found out today they are transferring me to the high risk doctors for the duration. Initially, there was disagreement over whether I had one or two placentas, so I was back and forth between the two doctors. They finally got it figured out. (I have 1, by the way – I’m considered ‘mono-di’ pregnancy – one gestational sac, 2 amniotic sacs).

It’s all a totally surreal experience. I’m still nervous and scared, but with every milestone and every positive appointment, it is starting to feel real. Still haven’t full-on accepted this is really happening; I can’t pretend I’m naive to the ‘what-ifs’ – regardless of the stage and milestone. But thus far, God has been so, so gracious to us. He truly is the only One who could have done this. He gets 100% of the credit.

The only downside is that I know that so many of my IF girls are still in the fight and still suffering. My heart aches for those who have yet to experience a good pregnancy, and I am praying every day that your day comes. So very soon.

The day after I told my parents the news, there was a double rainbow outside of my mom’s home. She sent me the picture and said that was my double-blessing – our double rainbow babies. She said,’ Kate, you lost 2 babies, but God is giving you back two.’ And that weekend, another blogger friend- Faithrises- posted this picture.

Vivid rainbow after rainstorm over ocean with dark clouds and sunlight, symbolizing hope and renewal, perfect for faith-based and uplifting content.

A prisoner of hope. I know what that feels like. Being held prisoner because you can’t give up or let go. You become a prisoner of, chained to – hope. There are worse prisons to be in.

Hope. That was the word God gave me for this year. My dear friends, don’t give up. Don’t lose hope. God is still a God who returns double. I’m proof. Baby A and Baby B – they are proof. Hold on to hope. xoxo

[Photo Credit: Faithrises (I can’t find the link to her blog! So sorry! Please help and I’ll give proper credit!]

(OH MY GOSH!!! WE’RE HAVING TWINS!!!!! GAHHHHHH!!!)

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    1. Thank you so much. I am thinking and praying for you all the time! Hope you are starting to heal and your days grow brighter. I haven’t forgotten what those days feel like, and I truly have you in my prayers. xoxo

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  5. Hahahahaha. That’s awesome Kate. So you’re having twins. I’m so happy for you. I pray that all goes super for the rest of the pregnancy.
    WOW.
    🙂

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    1. Thanks so much! It really is laughable and wonderful and just so, so amazing. He truly exceeded my expectations and has been so generously good to us!

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  7. Oh my gosh! That is amazing news!! Praise God! I’m thrilled for you Kate! Forgive my overuse of the “exclamation point” but I can’t think of a more appropriate sentiment. 🙂 praying for continued blessings on your family of FOUR!!!! o/

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    1. Thank you so so much! We are truly overwhelmed and humbled by God’s kindness to us. So truly undeserved, but He has been so good to us. I pray He gets every drop of glory from this and somehow this points people to Him!

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  9. I started tearing up reading about the double rainbow and what your mom said, that you lost two babies but God is giving you back two. I’m so happy for you that things are going well and the twins are doing well!! I’ll continue to hold onto hope. and I hope that as the sexing tri comes, you’ll start to feel better and better. <3

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    1. Thank you so much! We are overwhelmed by God’s goodness to us. It has given me more peace than fear. Following your updates and praying for you! xoxo

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  11. I was so scared when I saw this long awaited update and I read your first few words that I immediately burst into tears upon reading your news! They’re tears of joy for you Kate! Such amazing news! I am continuing to keep you in my prayers!

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    1. So, so crazy!!! It is such a relief to get such great news after years of so many years of bad! We are overwhelmed at God’s kindness to us!!! You are getting to the home stretch! Thinking of you and praying for you! xoxo

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      1. Thanks hon! Yes! It’s so surreal to be in the third trimester. It’s hard to believe I’ve made it this far! I had my baby shower on the weekend that I’ll post about soon. Sending you and your babies so many prayers too!

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  12. Oh my goodness! Katie my heart is so happy for you, your husband, and your twins!!!!!!! I will keep you in my prayers, especially for the next 27 weeks. Praise God! Take care of yourself momma!

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    1. Isn’t it incredible? So so humbled by His faithfulness to us! Still praying for you always!
      Your faith and faithfulness will be rewarded!

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  16. Rejoicing with you for your great blessings! God’s faithfulness is glorified in your journey! With congratulations and continued prayers! ~Blessings~

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    1. Isn’t it crazy, Chelsea? We were totally blown away. He truly knows how to exceed our expectations. Praying for the same big answer to your prayers, too, Chels. Praying al the time. (I missed your swap this month – I iwll try to get in next month!)

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    1. Isn’t it crazy! I still think of you this time last year and me, too. So much can happen in a year! Pray you and Nacho are happily adjusting to life together! Miss your updates! xoxo

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  24. I knew it!! I don’t know how but somehow I was so sure you were going to have twins, even after your last few posts with just one baby. Congratulations, and enjoy the rest of the journey!

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    1. Thank you so much! I just checked out your blog and looks like we are just a few weeks apart. Pray all is going well for you – God is faithful and I love your testimony! I’ll be following!

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    1. Thanks, Anna! I am truly blown away at what God has done. Above and beyond any of our expectations. Be encouraged, girl! He is working behind the scenes for you and will reward your faithfulness to Him!!! xoxo

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  27. Are you KIDDING me?! Twins! I practically leapt from my chair when I read that. And the double rainbow?? I am gobsmacked. This is the best thing I read today.

    Blessings and congrats!!!!!!

    Paul

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    1. Isn’t it crazy???? So ,so unexpected. We are truly blown away by God’s kindness to us. Twins – it’s unbelievable – but thankfully all has been going well. Thanks for cheering me on through this! So thankful for kind, caring souls!!

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    1. Thanks for checking in on me last week! I was bursting with the news, but not able to say it just yet! Praying for you all the time!!!! xoxo

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  32. “And Sarah laughed” Oh, what a joy-filling God we serve! So happy for you, Kate! Praying over your blessingS. 💕

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    1. Exactly! It is so, so crazy, and I am so glad to give God the glory for this! Exceedingly abundantly above what we could ask! Praying for your journey, too!!! 🙂

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  33. Crying here over my breakfast! So happy for you and your man! Congratulations and may the twins always sleep at the same time!

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  35. Now THIS is what I’m talking about!!! God is so very good! SO thrilled for you and your husband!! Guess those are *your* verses now. Maybe you can even print them and put them up in their nursery! 🙂 CONGRATS!!!

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  38. Oh my gosh!!!! I was late to this news, but I am so very excited for you! Makes me want to laugh out loud, such blessings! I am definitely pulling for you and keeping the four of you in my prayers. My next-door neighbor has twin babies, and I know they are a lot of work, but definitely a double blessing. So happy for you! Yay!!!!

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  41. I just happened to stumble upon ur blog and wanted to say congratulations. Hope I’m a success story as well. U have given me great hope.

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    1. We are fine! Thank you for your concern! Been backed up at work on a few projects I have to get done – feel guilty for blogging and not working! But me, Babies A and B are all well. I definitely will post an update very soon!!! We hit 21 weeks last Thurs, and so far, no complications, no concerns. Both are on target, growing well…all so miraculous and overwhelming. Thank you so much for thinking of me and for reaching out!!! It means so much. I’ll be back soon! Def. over Christmas break – hopefully before!!!

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